Can I be happy and sad at the same time?

Today is May 21st. My due date from my first pregnancy. I have had so many emotions running through me today. I woke up in a funk. I was sad and just kept thinking what it would be like to be holding my baby. Then Caleb gave me a nice strong kick in the ribs and that made me smile. I truly believe that everything happens for a reason but its hard to not think about how it could have been. On the other hand I am so blessed and happy how smooth this pregnancy has gone (*knocks on wood!*) I feel great, I love my bump more than words can describe!

I had the heart ultrasound for Caleb yesterday. It was really cool to see the blood flow through the chambers. The Doctor said he doesn't expect to see me ever again! The tech zoomed out and we got to make sure Caleb was still a Caleb! I saw his little butt! and his legs. He is already head down and he loves to kick me in the ribs. He did something the other day, stretched maybe? but he found my bladder! I thought I was going to wet myself! I ran for the bathroom. Just to let you all know I did make it!

I have big plans for this weekend!! The room is finally cleared out, its time to paint! I think Matt and I are going to Babies R Us to get the crib, changing table and dresser. The style I like happens to be discontinued. What they have left in stock is all they will have. Figures! BUT its all on sale too! Then Wednesday we get new carpet. Hopefully Wednesday nite the crib will be set up! That might be asking for too much but I can hope!

I think its time for some Tums. I will blog at you all later!