Christmas surprises!

Merry day after Christmas! We had a wonderful Christmas this year! We told Matt's parents that we were pregnant! It was so much fun! I wrapped a gift for each parent and made them open it together! Mom had a onesie that said "If Santa doesn't bring it Grandma will" and Dad had a hat and blanket that said "I love Grandpa." They were so surprised! it was so much fun.

I shipped a box to my mom, aunt, uncle and nana. I had directions for them to call me when one of the gifts were opened. It was a picture frame that said mommy + daddy = me and i put in a picture of me, matt and my positive home test in it. BUT as of today she still hasn't gotten it!! I shipped it FEDEX and who knew I couldn't ship FEDEX to a PO Box?! So now its coming back to me and I will have to reship it. GRRRRRR!!!

There were so many surprises this Christmas! It has to be one of the best yet!

My Dr. appointment for Jan. 7th was moved to Jan. 16th. that seems so far away. I will be almost 10 weeks then and we should get to hear a STRONG heartbeat! I am excited and nervous at the same time.

McAllister - OUT

5 weeks!

I really don't have much to say, just that we are 5 weeks along! Still no morning sickness (yay!) but boy to I get heartburn! I have 3 more weeks before I see my doctor. It's going to be the longest 3 weeks of my life! I tried to get in sooner, just for a check up, to see if they can test my hormone levels to make sure everything is going good but they are booked! I'm on standby, if someone cancels they will fit me in. The nurse, Kara, is the most wonderful woman! She has called me twice a week just to check on me. Making sure I'm taking my progestrone pills. She is very confident that was my only problem last time. Now that we have fixed it, hopefully everything will go well this time around.
We still havent told anyone yet. (execpt Matt & Tia Cady) I cant wait for Christmas! I have BIG plans for Christmas morning! Until then, love to you all!

Kelly and the bean :)

Fertile Myrtle!

OH MY GOSH!! I tinkled on a stick tonight for fun and it said PREGNANT!! My cycle shouldn't start for another 5 days, and I kept telling myself to wait until AT LEAST Saturday to take a test, but I broke down and did it tonite. I couldn't wait! Now I cant sleep!! I am so excited. These are going to be the longest next few weeks EVER!! Its going to suck not telling anyone right now, but one of the hardest things I have ever done was to un-tell people that I was pregnant. That's one of the reasons I started this blog. This way I can track my progress as I go and when I am in the "safe zone" I will send out my link to everyone! I took my prometrium (sp?) tonight. I'm not sure how long I will need to take it but its a twice a day pill that help keep mine and the baby's hormones levels up.
I already did the due date calculator! August 16th 2009!!

Now the journey begins...

one month later

So today is my one month anniversary. Do I call it an anniversary? I am doing better, but I still have my moments. I signed up for the baby center emails and I got the 13 week email the other day. It said I was in the "safe zone" and it made me cry. It will get easier.

I had a blood test a couple weeks ago and found out my progesterone (sp?) levels are low. That is what most likely caused my miscarriage. I had mixed feelings about it. I was upset when I first found out but then I thought at least I know what happened. Maybe it wasn't my fault at all. My doctor put me on progesterone so it won't happen again. I do feel better knowing I will be monitored closely during my next pregnancy.

Thats about all I have to say for now. Keep it real...

recap

the date october 13th will be with me for the rest of my life.the day i had a miscarriage. it has been the hardest thing i have ever had to deal with. i was sad then mad. mad at god mad at myself. was i being punished? i am the type of person that keeps my feelings to myself. it has always been hard for me to talk about my feelings. i thank god i have matt. he is the best husband/best friend anyone could ask for. he didnt push me to talk about it, but he listened when i did need to talk. he let me cry and made me laugh. i still get sad every once in a while and i have found that the shower is a great place to cry.
i started this blog to keep track of the journey matt and i about to take. we are picking ourselves up, dusting ourselves off and getting back into the game! we are not giving up. we will be awesome parents. until next time, keep it real!
Kelly